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Waifu Wars Concept

I paid a comedian to record a 5 minute bit rating my waifus. He liked the idea and we recorded a video about it with the intention of making it a running series. I pitched a website, voting mechanism, and a series of episodes, including some introductory writing (below). I also found some owners of Itasha for another episode! Unfortunately, he dumped me and decided to partner with his girlfriend, but kept the concept and the guests I had found. OH well. I still thought the stuff I wrote was amusing, so here it is:

“Who should mai waifu be?”

That’s such a personal thing. It depends on what you’re looking for – personality, boob size, power level, species, age, history, clothing style. A lot of 2D prospective waifus you’ll find yourself initially attracted to, or even finding yourself thinking about them more and more, considering a long-term thing. But there might not be the perfect chemistry – maybe the physical piece is there, but they have a boring clothing style or annoying voice. Maybe they got the body and right boob size, but they have a personality that turns you off. You’re going to have to date around, maybe try out a harem or two before you get an idea of the kind of waifu you’re looking for. Then one magical moment, after spending 12, maybe 24 episodes with a lady, you realize. She’s the one. And you pledge to be her husbando in sickness and health, rich or poor. {Does a waifu ever…reject someone? Like do they have a choice in this scenario?}
First of all, it’s important to get out there and experience the great waifus that Nippon has to offer first-hand. We are living a golden age of anime; gone are the days of giant, awful hair and alien-sized eyes of 80’s and 90’s anime. The 2D beauties of modern anime have been refined to perfection. So get out there and mingle, find out who is right for you!
Falling in love with your waifu is an intensely personal experience that reflects your deepest desires. So, to know who your waifu should be, first you must know yourself:
Does the idea of a bratty, spoiled, entitled middle-school girl prone to domestic violence intrigue you? Try out some tsunderes like Taiga from Toradora, or pretty much any girls voiced by Rie Kagamiya, except for Louise, obviously, as she is spoken-for. {queue discussion of imagined-exclusivity of waifus/why is your waifu in middle school}
Maybe you’re the loyal type and value a woman who will fly into a psychotic, violent rage at the mere suggestion that you may be talking to another woman. If so, look for a yandare like Nadeko in Monogatari or Ayase in Oreimo.
Are you shy and looking for a girl who isn’t afraid to publicly show her affection? Deredere (double the dere, none of the tsun) is the one you’re looking for. Sincere, affectionate, and vanilla. Try Menma from Anohana or Rikka from chuunibiyou.
If you want to fuck a snake or spider, check out Mon-Musume. If getting serious with an anthropomorphized WWII-era naval warship schoolgirl sounds interesting, definitely try Kantai Collection, and give Yukikaze my regards if you do.
Physical features can be just as important as personality when selecting a 2D life-partner. And the most important choice you can make is breast size. The war over best breast size has raged on within the deepest, dankest corners of otaku waifudom for decades: with the sophisticated, patrician DFC/Justice faction versus peasants with conventional tastes who favor giant cow udder oppai. The faction you identify with has serious implications for your choice of waifu, dramatically changing the route you will take.
Watch lots of Harem shows as they deliberately pander to a variety of character archetypes to maximise the number of lonely, despondent NEETs who will fantasize about romance vicariously through their television program and merchandise. That could be you, buddy! What are you waiting for?!


Leftover Hypocrisy

I never expected Stza/Leftover Crack to have a coherent political philosophy or ethics. One glance at their lyrics and lifestyle would cure you of that idea.

Still, I’m fascinated with them because their music rules. It’s probably some of the best, freshest punk to come out in two decades. And I appreciate their edginess, in an era of P.C. As an edgy teenager, the hot topic-tier “smoke crack and worship satan” memes seemed BADASS. 15 years later, and it’s definitely showing its age. I grew up and sold out, but I guess Stza never did.

In a interview from 2012, Stza takes the moral high ground and claims that a mass-shooting of children would be “off-limits” for him and not funny:


I guess he forgot about his “Shoot the Kids at School” t-shirt which is still for sale even in 2018:




Ayn Rand, Margaret Thatcher, and the Paradox of Tolerance in Stellaris


Stellaris has a fascinating political game mechanic that allows you to mix and match ethos. One specific combination, Individualist + Materialist, generates the following response when encountering new empires:

“Who is [Your Empire’s Leader Name]?” This is [Leader’s Name] speaking.

Sisters of Saint Benedict's Monastery: Atlas ShruggedThis is a reference to the first line of John Galt’s famous and lengthy speech from Ayn Rand’s novel Atlas Shrugged (emphasis added):

For twelve years, you have been asking: “Who is John Galt?” This is John Galt speaking. I am the man who loves his life. I am the man who does not sacrifice his love or his values. I am the man who has deprived you of victims and thus has destroyed your world, and if you wish to know why you are perishing-you who dread knowledge -I am the man who will now tell you.

You can read the full speech here, although I would recommend reading the book first as this speech is the climax of the story and probably wouldn’t sustain your attention without context. The book is an alternate-past mystery about the collapse of the U.S. with some light sci-fi elements and a strong political/ethical message.

This reference is fitting for the combination of traits. Ayn Rand’s philosophy, Objectivism, could certainly be described as fanatic individualism and materialism. Her writing and philosophy remain quite controversial 60 years after being published, with mainstream intellectuals, academics, and journalists almost universally expressing contempt or hatred for Rand’s writing and for anyone who takes her seriously.

Personally, I confess, I’m a big fan:

The ethics/government effects in Stellaris show that the developers are shrewd observers of history and reality:

Collectivism produces slavery and starvation, and leads to Autocracy (Dictatorship or Monarchy).

Individualism leads to liberty, diversity of ethos (free thought), and Democracy. Materialism to science, progress, and prosperity.

The way that Individualism creates ethos divergence, a negative game trait of populations that causes ethical drift away from your established (Individualist) ethos. This is fascinating in that it seems to model the paradox of tolerance in liberal societies:

The paradox of tolerance was described by Karl Popper in 1945. The paradox states that if a society is tolerant without limit, their ability to be tolerant will eventually be seized or destroyed by the intolerant.

Stellaris flavor text follows:


Community is a means to an end, not the end itself. Only by empowering the individual to reach their maximum potential do we achieve true freedom. Freedom of thought, of speech, of movement, of trade.

Fanatic Individualism

We must recognize that “society” is but a convenient fiction, the by-product of individuals working toward parallel, overlapping, and contradictory goals. As it should be.

This is reminiscent of a quote from Margaret Thatcher’s :

And, you know, there is no such thing as society. There are individual men and women, and there are families. And no government can do anything except through people, and people must look to themselves first.


As we reach for the stars, we must put away childish things; gods, spirits and other phantasms of the brain. Reality is cruel and unforgiving, yet we must steel ourselves and secure the survival of our race through the unflinching pursuit of science and technology.

Video Games 15 years ago vs. Today

found this draft post from 2009 that i never finished or published and i kinda want to put it out now anyways lol

video games 15 years ago means 1994, which was the year that

  • Mortal Kombat II is released which is the first nintendo game to have blood and gore in it
  • the Warcraft franchise is invented
  • Killer Instinct and Tekken are released
  • Earthworm Jim released

Whereas video games in 2009:

    • Age of Empires creator Ensemble Studios shut down after 15 years
    • Beatles Rock Band?
    • millions of half-hearted sequels


Letter sent to my Professor

Professor Flanagan,

I took Individual Freedom with you in 2003, and your seminar course on Nietzsche & the politics of perspectivism in 2006.

You left an enduring impression on me, and 12 years later, I still periodically think about you and your classes. I doubt you remember me, but attached is a photo from 2006 for your reference. I was (and still am…) a big Ayn Rand fan (which alas earns me nothing but scorn from academics and philosophers).

One memorable exchange we had: in your Nietzsche seminar course, you talked about the pathetic spectacle of a grown man who plays Gameboy, a kind of grotesque self-emasculation and subversion of an otherwise heroic will to power. I arrived early at the next class and made sure you saw me grinning, playing my gameboy as you entered. You might have given your customary sardonic smile in response. But the lesson stuck with me. I’m 32 now and starting a family – and the idea of growing up and not being a perpetual man-child is starting to make a hell of a lot of sense to me now. Thank you for that.

I also slept through most of the final exam for that course – perhaps one of the top 5 panics of my life – which you graciously allowed me to take in your office after hours. Thanks again.

I was prompted to write to you today because I’ve been eagerly consuming another professor’s lectures – Jordan B. Peterson of the University of Toronto – and he reminds me of you. I regret not taking the chance while I was at AU to get to know you better as I now have come to fully appreciate how exceedingly rare professors like you are – who challenge students, and who boldly illuminate complex and fraught ideas. So, I admittedly DON’T know you very well (or at all), but I remember your passion, insight, humility and arrogance (both), wry sense of humor, honesty (vulnerability), and stern kindness. Have you heard of Jordan Peterson?

A brief google search of your name didn’t seem to turn up much (I actually still chuckle about us students’ speculation re: what the “G.” stands for in your name. My favorite was “What if the G. stands for Gordon? Gordon, Borden, Flanagan.” To which we all erupted in laughter). I was hoping to find articles, blogs, a cult following I could attach myself and derive identity from. What have you been doing lately?

One thing you, via Nietzsche, taught me that year, was that “philosophy is as much autobiography as anything else: philosophers attempt to justify and to convince others of what it is that drives and motivates them.” This was a bitter pill to swallow for a self-avowed “Objectivist” who fancied his beliefs “Objectively True.” Your teachings made me cynical about my own convictions, my own motives, and ultimately have made me more tolerant of people with different perspectives, and more willing to change my opinions. Thank you.

I still live in the area; Let me know if we could grab a coffee or bite to eat in DC some time!

Your student,


Atheist seeking God

Details are emerging that the Texas shooter was known by his friends as an outspoken (militant) Atheist. While his motive hasn’t yet been confirmed by any kind of note, it seems to be more than coincidence that he selected worshippers as his victims. This means that the attack may have been anti-Christian terrorism.

For about 15 years (Age 15 to 30) I was a militant Atheist, bashing and mocking religion and believers, especially Christians, every chance I got.

Over the past ~3 years, I’ve undergone a strange transformation – not so sudden as a blinding light, but maybe as effective – as the wisdom and purpose of Christ and his church have been revealed to me.

Looking back at what brought me back to God:


2007: The Death of God and the Prejudices of Philosophers

I take a seminar course on Nietzsche, seeds are planted that the death of god is not something to celebrate, but to fear. Also take a blow to my belief in reason after reading Nietzsche’s cynical deconstruction of philosophy as an enterprise devoted to justifying a person’s pre-existing prejudices, rather than an enterprise of reason and Truth…

2012: How to Win Friends and Stop Being a Self-Righteous Prick


I read “How to Win Friends and Influence People” which taught me that my impulse to criticize other people’s errors wasn’t rooted in a desire to promote truth, but rather in a desire to feel superior. And that if I was serious about changing someone’s mind, I must do so with compassion and respect, earnestly trying to understand their belief, rather than with arrogance.

March 2014: My vanity reflected

I confront a close friend who engages in vitriolic debates about religion with christian family and friends on his facebook page about his hostile approach, trying to suggest that he is harming his own position by ridiculing and humiliating people for their beliefs. He’s receptive, but I don’t note much change in his online interactions. I see my past self reflected in him and I don’t like what I see.

2014: The Wages of Sin

My long-term relationship crumbles. While some friends and family offer support, I’m unable to explain the specific circumstances and sin that started the snowball rolling that eventually crushed me. I’m unable to feel forgiven or redeemed for the mistakes I made. I don’t know what to do to move forward.

religion-for-atheists-jacket-high-resJuly 2014: Atheism 2.0

I hear Alain de Botton’s TED talk about Atheism 2.0 and read his book “Religion for Atheists” which promote religious practices like prayer and worship for Atheists and a redefining of these practices to have modern relevance. Over the summer, I attend four churches, seeking without knowing specifically what. No church feels at home for me.

October 2015: The Poisoning of the Atheist Movement

I follow Thunderf00t’s (Liberal, Scientist Youtuber) denunciation of the growing identity politics-laden, progressive, neo-feminist influence on the Skeptics movement.

mormon2016: Latter-Day Bates

I am ministered to by several Mormon missionaries in my apartment, meeting weekly. They display a charitable kindness, compassion, and earnestness that I deeply appreciate and admire. My pretense was to convert them to Atheism, which I tried to do. Yet, in deploying the compassionate tactics from “How to win friends and influence people,” I found myself seduced by the wholesomeness and sense of community, identity, and confidence that the young men exuded. The helped me overcome a pornography and masturbation habit that I had long battled.

June 2016: Alienation I: Reason Rally

After looking forward to the next Reason Rally, the world’s largest Atheist rally, which I attended in 2012, I boycott it after discovering that the agenda, rather than promoting reason, skepticism, and and secular ethics instead states “The rally’s major issues of focus are climate change, reproductive rights and LGBT equality.” The skeptical movement had been completely taken over by the progressive left. My complaints on /r/Atheism are ridiculed and censored. What’s the link between Atheism and cultural Marxism? Is my Atheism misguided?

April 2017: Alienation II: The March for Science March for Science happens in DC. It’s a ghastly display of smug, drone-like progressivism in protest of Donald Trump and in support of various left-wing political projects – masquerading as being “scientific.” It also displays the cringe-inducing mass-market edginess that attracts Rick & Marty fans, whomst’d I also hate. I realize that I have become deeply alienated from the “Atheist culture” – all the more depressing as I watch my (formerly) best friend continue to march lock-step with them.

May 2017: Tipping Point – The Meaning of God

I begin watching Jordan B Peterson’s lecture series on the Psychological significance of the bible after hearing his debate with famous militant Atheist Sam Harris. I learn the meaning of God again.

the-strange-death-of-europeJuly 2017: The Strange Death of Europe

I go to France, while reading “The Strange Death of Europe.” I witness a civilization in terminal decline, unwilling to defend itself. I see breathtakingly beautiful cathedrals, one surrounded by an African open-air market with Muslims raising money for a Mosque nearby, a rap video being shot on the steps of the front entrance. For the first time in 17 years, in a chapel to Mother Mary, I pray in earnest, for France. I feel shivers and chills run through my body as I regain the ability to sincerely pray again.


Photo I took at Saint Denis Basilica Cathedral

The Myth of Whitewashing

A friend of mine on facebook, a German riddled with guilt that her father was a literal Luftwaffe pilot fighting for der Fuhrer, who married a Japper, constantly posts anti-white propaganda – in this case, complaining about the myth of Hollywood Whitewashing (a term invented to attack white people for being white and to blackmail directors into discriminating against whites) by sharing an article listing recent supposed instances of the phenomenon. I’ve debunked each here.

1) Matt Damon cast in “The Great Wall”

Director Zhang Yimou said that Matt Damon was not playing a role that was intended for a Chinese actor, he further criticized detractors for not being “armed with the facts” and stated that:
“In many ways The Great Wall is the opposite of what is being suggested. For the first time, a film deeply rooted in Chinese culture, with one of the largest Chinese casts ever assembled, is being made at tentpole scale for a world audience.”

2) Emma Stone cast as Allison Ng in “Aloha”

Director Cameron Crowe explains:
“As far back as 2007, Captain Allison Ng was written to be a super-proud ¼ Hawaiian who was frustrated that, by all outward appearances, she looked nothing like one. A half-Chinese father was meant to show the surprising mix of cultures often prevalent in Hawaii.”
He continues,
“Extremely proud of her unlikely heritage, she feels personally compelled to over-explain every chance she gets. The character was based on a real-life, red-headed local who did just that.”

3) Scarlett Johansson’s starring role in the recent “Ghost in the Shell.”


The character, Major Motoko Kusanagi, is an old brain – a “ghost” – in a “shell” – a prosthetic body, manufactured by a company. The entire series revolves around this “ghost” struggling to understand her humanity and identity despite inhabiting a variety and series of shells. The character literally never had a race, deliberately so – as a major plot point.
Mamoru Oshii (director of the 1995 and 2004 original anime films) says that Johansson exceeded his expectations for the role. Oshii said that as the Major uses an assumed body and name, there was no basis for saying an Asian woman must portray her, and stated:
“I can only sense a political motive from the people opposing it, and I believe artistic expression must be free from politics.”
So here we have, again, an Asian author daring to write a story where the race of the protagonist is either deliberately Caucasian, or deliberately ambiguous, who endorses the casting, being told by people with an axe to grind against white people that they’re wrong, that their story is wrong.

I can’t think of anything more offensively anti-asian than telling asians that they’re racist for writing their own stories and creating their own art. Who are you to tell others what to create?